Wednesday, March 28

Confessions

It has been quite awhile since i've uttered a long traditional prayer in the privacy of my room, or delved into the Bible eager to learn more about my God, or even been spiritually enriched from a church service. When I grew up I was taught that to be closer to God, I needed to pray regularly, read the Bible often, and attend church, otherwise there would be no growth. I soon realised that my prayers were twisted from my immature understanding of God, the more I read my bible the more I realised how wrong about it I had been, and that Church was doing less and less for my spiritual life as the weeks rolled by. I was right, but I have yet to find a viable alternative.

In my blog I have defined Christianity as existential, as in: imitating Jesus and his social ideals is where Christianity starts and where it stops. The scriptual evidence is overwhelming, but I have yet to fully recover the spirituality that I once had. That is the one thing that separates Existential Christianity from a standard 'do-gooder' philosophy, into following the Lord Jesus Christ.

The more I think about it, the more I realise that I lack the strength. For example, I know very well the spiritually destructive capabilities of capitalism and the consumer society, and yet I still spend more time thinking about the latest consumer item than God or Jesus. The more choice and freedom there is in society, the more chance there is of corruption, and the weaker sides of a human being get dragged to the fore. This is what I have experienced, living in a society full of advertising, the internet, and the supremacy of the market.

When I write about the negative effects of our capitalistic worldview, it is not from a "looking down onto my readers because I know all" perspective I can assure you. If anything, I am begging myself to stop being sucked in, through the literature. It appalls me that the Church condemns homosexual rights, especially when you consider how they often endorse political parties that insist on cramming affluenza down our throats. What is more danger to a Christian? The existence of a homosexual man being treated just like everyone else, or the ever-enduring temptation to buy, consume, spend, and to revolve our life around those three principles. Perhaps it is a teenage phenomenon, or a 'me-only' phenomenon, but nevertheless my spirituality can not co-exist with such flagrant consumerism.

Matthew 6:
19 - Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal:
20 - But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:
21 - For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.